Things will come and go and we have to be thankful for them. They might not turn out the way you planned, or go as hoped. But that's no reason to let it go.

I have my eyes set, I just have to work on getting there.

Photo by Jennifer Dickinson.

Moment.

One moment could change everything.

It could instantly,

Or it could down the line.

I try and keep that in mind. That even though results may not be instant, they may pop back up and surprise you.

My plan was to get into my best shape possible, have my best book possible and get my agent to send my things to an agency that had previously been interested in me.

They beat me to the punch.

Now my moment is a week away.

I'm trying not to have much expectations. Letting what happens happen. But I'm also going in with a confident mind set.

As long as I allow myself to be open to it and put myself there, what's meant to happen will.

Some of my friends don't understand the impact this could have, but I'm using that as motivation. I'm using any person who made fun of me, doubted me or even laughed at me, as my fuel.

I have fire behind me, that's what will get me there.

Here's to a leap of faith & good things to come.

Ky.xo

It's like a heat wave burning in my heart.

Today I worked for Alfa Romeo in the Concurs D'elegance Car show. We got to unveil the brand new "Guliette" that actually isn't released until next year. Sounds like a fun day right? No. Today was literally the hottest day I have ever endured in my life. Now, I know we say this a lot. Like how every time we get sick we always say "I have never felt this sick" but really it's just you feeling like crap in that moment. Well I'm not just saying this. It wins, by far. When ever we have jobs we are told to moisturize our skin before. BAD idea when you sweat. My body was like a slip n' slide. Because when you sweat all the cream that was sitting on your skin rises.. It doesn't feel so nice. I literally drank 4 huge things of water. If people in Tokyo do not have air conditioning I honestly think they could die. No lies. It's that bad. 

So if I hear anyone back home complaining about heat again I would love for them to come here and check this place out.

Torture.

All the Japanese actually carry around a towel to wipe themselves off with. Seriously, you see it everywhere. And that's just normal. I now understand why ever one leaves for a few weeks in the summer. It is not enjoyable at all. 

Then on the way back the metro was packed. I had been there when it's busy, but it was packed. Like peoples faces against the windows kind of thing. Which didn't help with my already sweaty situation. I literally had a girls face in my armpit. And to top it off, the japanese just sleep on the metro so I had a guy snoozing on my back. My mosquito bites on my leg? I couldn't itch them, I could hardly breath, I was lucky to have a handle to hold, not that I would have gone anywhere. 

When I came home it literally took 2 hours of sitting under my blasting air conditioning and a cold shower in order to cool me down...

Just cool me down.

I'm not over exaggerating or anything. I know I do that a lot but honestly. There is no sarcasm in my words..for once.

So, what is to learn from all this? If you ever plan on visiting Japan, DON'T go in the summer.

You can learn, I can suffer.

Ky.xo

Hello Tokyo

The other day I received some amazing news. My agent called informing me I had been offered a contract over seas in Tokyo. I think at that very moment my stomach fell out my butt. I froze, about 100 things flew threw my mind and stopped on one. How long? I asked. 2 months she said. 2 months in Tokyo. I had to sit down and think, she was throwing information at me like a batting cage. I tried to keep up but I felt like my mind had shut down. Then the more we talked the more the excitement bulleted through me. I realized I will be modeling in Tokyo for a summer! How fantastic! So much to do and so little time!
Tokyo better be ready,
they are getting a piece of Ky.

Ky.xo