Kill them with kindness.

Today I woke up with a new direction to this whole living situation. I was not okay with them outcasting me so I decided it would be no longer. I had bought two teddy bears wearing Canada sweaters so first thing I did was go into the room and gave them to them. As a way to break the ice. Turns out one of them had brought me russian chocolate and pictures of their city. I knew after that things would be different and even though we still mainly talk through interpretive dance it's a lot better. I want to make friends and I mean who can turn down a Canadian, we seriously have this way of getting along with people. When we go to jobs my agent always says I'm from Canada and they seem so smile a lot larger and be more polite to me. I love it.
I then got the privilege of figuring out the shower and the toilet. It was an adventure. Turns out the toilet is one of those ones that when you flush it makes the sink go. Who knew, I'm not even going to bother with the bunch of other buttons. The shower in a littler room with a tub. It's a little odd but it works thats the important thing. Then my mom and I set me room up and un-packed. It now feels like my room not just some place. It definitely helps.
Then we went to work for the day which consisted of 7 castings. And anyone who is in the industry would know that is a lot for one day. It was all over tokyo hopping on the subway and walking everywhere. I was sweating so much, I haven't had that good of a work out in a long time. After all that I no longer feel guilty for having starbucks and mcdonalds this morning. Yes we found starbucks and mcdonalds, so happy!
But after going around and seeing more of tokyo, getting to know my room mates a bit better and not only that but doing something I love , I have found I'm really starting to like this town. I think I just needed to find my routine and now that I have I feel more comfortable.
It's so true you find comfort in consistency..
You wouldn't believe how clean it is here. In the subway little old woman get down with a cloth and scrub spots on the floor. It's nuts. We also found out today that they have drive by advertisements. But they aren't like your typical semi with a picture on the side, they have loud music sometimes with talking and vibrant colours that blind you as they pass. It's hilarious.
I'm feeling really good about most of the castings, one was for fuji flim, a jeans ad, a wedding editorial and a bunch of hair shows. We find out tomorrow what we booked. Tomorrow so far we have 3 castings one being for the shopping channel. It's huge over here! And apparently a really good job to get.
Hopefully I will be able to report I have booked a few more jobs tomorrow!
Tomorrow is Canada day (remember the 15 hour time difference) so my mom and I have canada t-shirts were going to wear and we have a bunch of canada pencils (they love anything with our flag) and were going to go give them to little kids. I'm pretty upset I'm not home for it, it's one of my favorite holidays, but instead I will bring it to Tokyo!

Ky.xo

From Island to Island.

I think I have felt every emotion possible today. Saying good-bye was very hard. It took a long time to finally dry my tears, my amazing sister and a few friends drove all the way to the airport to see me off. I can't even explain how amazing and heart breaking that felt.
After a very long plane ride next to who I think is possibly the cutest baby ever we landed in Tokyo.
So you know when your in a really over heated hot tub for a long time and you get out and you feel like your skin is radiating. Well that's what it's like here. All the time. And to top it off it will rain too. Hot rain. Awesome.
So anywho we got off the plane and ran onto the bus and rode about an hour and a half into Ikebukuro where we met my agent. He took us to the apartment which is small and hot but it's clean, so thats all that matters. Right away I was swept off to a casting for a hair fashion show. My two roommates from Russia and another russian model from my agency went with me. Of course I know absolutely no Russian and they know little english. I felt like an outcast immediately. I began to panic. I felt sick and lonely. This was what the whole trip would be like? Resent and regret washed over me. But then, at the casting I was shown it will all be ok. They loved my hair taking pictures and talking, it reminded me why I'm here. Not to make friends, but for myself, for my career. I found a new confidence with it and decided to get to know it. With this new found mind set I decided to try a little harder to get to know my roommates, even with the barrier. And even though it is still awkward it has already gotten better, I mean we have 2 months so we better figure out something that works.
This is only day one and I have basically had no sleep in about 36 hours.
We will see what tomorrow brings.
Ky.xo

Excuse me, Monday is how soon?!

This is my last weekend here before I go. The thought of leaving is still very surreal to me. I say it over and over, tell everyone but it still hasn't set in. Mainly because I don't know what to expect. What it looks like, where I'll be, nothing. Plus I keep having nightmares that my roommates hate me. I'm not too worried about that I'm sure they will be fine but the fear of the un-known will always get you.
I can hardly believe how amazing everyone is being about this. People I would never expect to be so sad I'm leaving are. People I know but maybe don't talk to much are being so supportive. It's almost overwhelming. But it's good because it reminds me how ambitious I am and that I want to make them proud. This is the opportunity of a life time. And I am going to live it up for all it's worth.
My friends and family, I love you, you are all amazing. We will survive two months apart. It sounds so long but it will fly bye.
I promise to keep a constant update on here for you all to hear of my adventures.
Without your support I could not do this. So thank-you.

I would especially like to thank my mother. She has spent so much money, time and stress into this. I know it will run smoothly thanks to her. You don't know how much it means to me.

One more day until that lovely 10 hour flight!

Ky.xo

Tim Walker

I was meant to be in this industry.
When I have pounds of homework the class I do first?
Fashion design, the one that barely counts for anything
When I should be studying for exams what am I doing?
Looking at models and photographers.
And in doing so I have found a new obsession.
His name is Tim Walker this amazing creative photographer.
His work is odd and indescribable. It is a work of art.
There should honestly be a religion on this guy.
His work makes you stop and think and want to wonder what it's story is.
It's amazing.

Ky.xo

Ps. This photo was an actual vogue cover, such a masterpiece.

Where did ya go?

I have a friend. His name is Jacob. Some of you who may end up reading this might know him. And I can imagine in time he may read this too so Jacob..Hi.
Anyways We went on a field trip not too long ago. We talked non-stop and when it came time for him to go back to Duncan on the bus and for me to stay back alone I felt a way I never have before.
I was confident. I was secure. I was happy and proud of myself. I didn't care I was wondering around alone. I had no problems smiling at strangers.
It was a wonderful feeling.
And as I sit here on my bed now I wonder where that feeling went? I need to find a way to pull that out of myself when in Tokyo. Because that girl, that day. Would land every casting she went to. And this one, in sweat pants and a hoodie on her computer today would not.
No questions about it.
And I'm not sure if it's just because Jacob is a good friend, or if he just has that quality to bring that out in people but either way I need to find a way to bring a little Jacob with me.
Because I like that girl.
She will come in handy.

Ky.xo

The Final Countdown.

24 days.
...24 days.
So, along with last week and a half of school, 4 exams, working and seeing everyone before I go I basically leave tomorrow.
I have travelled lots here and there. But nothing farther then Mexico or New York. Longest flight was about 7 on the way back from New York..
This one. 10 hours.
10.
Those three hours make a HUGE difference.
10.
And not only that but a 15 hour time difference which in other words at the moment I would be saying good-afternoon. Not being tucked in bed as I am right now.
But to be honest, none of that bothers me. Yes the plane ride will suck. But I don't even care it will be so worth it.
I just need to try and not expect anything and just see it when I get there. I always try and get mental images and Try and think of what it will be like.
I'm always wrong.
So I should stop and just let it come,
Because like I said, I leave tomorrow..
Ky.xo