Change is a wonderful thing. We shall not fear it, but welcome it with open arms.

When I look back at the past and laugh about the things I did, I realize that it is thanks to change that I am at the place I am now.

My life has changed, it was time the blog did too.

"Fashion is my food."

Ky.xo

Fingers Crossed during restless nights.

Well... The moment has passed.

Yes I had my meeting with Woman's Management. To be honest it couldn't have gone better. Much more then I expected. So if nothing comes of this I have no regrets which is a good thing, because I know there was nothing else I could have done. But I also have a lot of faith in myself and believe that they will get back to me.

See there's a difference between being conceited and confident. I worked hard, I trained, ate well, got my book together. All as preparation for this meeting.

I have a right to be confident.

Of course I have my doubts. But if it's not meant to happen now... it will later.

I'd just much rather have now.

I'm only Human. That's just the way we are.

Ky.xo

Moment.

One moment could change everything.

It could instantly,

Or it could down the line.

I try and keep that in mind. That even though results may not be instant, they may pop back up and surprise you.

My plan was to get into my best shape possible, have my best book possible and get my agent to send my things to an agency that had previously been interested in me.

They beat me to the punch.

Now my moment is a week away.

I'm trying not to have much expectations. Letting what happens happen. But I'm also going in with a confident mind set.

As long as I allow myself to be open to it and put myself there, what's meant to happen will.

Some of my friends don't understand the impact this could have, but I'm using that as motivation. I'm using any person who made fun of me, doubted me or even laughed at me, as my fuel.

I have fire behind me, that's what will get me there.

Here's to a leap of faith & good things to come.

Ky.xo

Tension

Things have been slowing down for this child. Well, modeling wise. Life wise things are non-stop. Between school, job hunting, friends, dance, guitar and what ever else I hardly find time to rest. But I have no complaints. I prefer to keep busy and honestly, I have felt very positive lately. I have really come to realize the thick skin Japan made me grow. And I like it. A lot. It may help that I'm now in Grade 12 and don't really have anyone to look up to. Who knows? Either way I like it.

I shot the Spring 2011 Tension Catalog and well, to be honest, I didn't really want to. This would be my forth time working for them and I never like the hair and make-up or the styling and really only a few times have I liked the end result too. But it's one of the only local jobs I get paid for. No, to me modeling isn't about the money but I am unemployed so if I can find random modeling jobs that pay why wouldn't I? Plus it is tear sheets. Anywho, it was a long day. I had to get up at 4:30 to catch the ferry to Vancouver, shoot over 20 different looks. It was exhausting! Then travel home and go to school the following morning.

The people I worked for are always nice, so I wouldn't say I regret doing it, but at the time I was kind of thinking man, if I was in Japan I'd be getting a lot more for this. No I'm not greedy but it's hard when you go from one extreme to another.

But it's over with, I'm now caught up again in my classes and things are going well.

I hope to keep all my posts this fairly optimistic.

'til then.

Ky.xo

Ps. The photo is from a recent shoot I did with Jonathan Bell.